People , Hello ~
Info, much?THE GIRL-
Yo strangers ! People called me Nina . 15 years young and currently growing old with SJ , screw you if you don't know them . I'm obsessed , yes I am . and I am a full time fangirl . Hates me , then go away from here . Basically , I wrote everything about SJ-related here . You can barely see any my life updates . because SJ is my life . Hurt me , I am just okay with it . Hurt them , I am so going to turn into a hulk and punch you hard . So yeah , that's it :D
Forever Biased : ZE:A , MBLAQ . Likes : All Kpop music .
since July 11th 2008
posted on Monday, December 28, 2009, 9:46 AM
This is so f*king crazy
YAH LAPTOP , WHY THE HELL YOU'RE ACTING LIKE SHIT ?!
ps: I'm using my mom's laptop , gahhh , laptop comeback . my dearest lappy :(
pray fr my laptop to comeback . only for this three days . pleaseee ?
posted on Friday, December 25, 2009, 12:57 PM
Seriously , call me stupid .
When I'm in shock mod , I turns into a stupid person .
I know the word ' temporarily ' but I still want to google translated it ,
And yes , Suju M is temporarily disband . see the temporarily word ? and see the disband word ?
I'm glad there's ' temporaily ' before ' disband ' , because if its only the word ' disband ' , i think i'm going to regret every second i live ,
I regret that I didn't know suju m as much as other elfs are ,
and I regret that I only spent my times about suju , I did not even care about suju m .
its not that i did not , I care about suju m , but i care about suju more , make sense ?
I'm a bad elf , call me bad elf . I'm bad . I'm bad because i don't know about suju m while they're too apart of suju . I regret it .
I AM A BAD ELF FOR SUJU AND I DON'T DESERVE THE WORD ' ELF ' , i think so . because i abandoned suju m . Yes , and know something ? I don't even know when is henry's and zhoumi's birthday . Wei , I'm bad . I regret it so much .
Do I still deserve those compliments after knowing that i'm not as awesome as you think i am ? I'm sorry .
Well , I read hanna's blog . When hanna wrote the confusion's entry , I think I should write one too .
She said ' if i have to make a choice.
a choice between the two people that i love.
who should i choose? '
For me , If i really have a choice to choose either of them . I will not chooce either both of them . Because when i choose hankyung , then kyuhyun will be hurt . and when i choose kyuhyun , hankyung will be hurt . I don't want them to be sad .I'd rather let myself cry because i didn't get to choose one of them . Kyuhyun and Hankyung , this two person are really really important to me . Who will cook the most famous and delicious beijing friend rice if i don't have my hankyung ? and who will ever teach me to play dota if i don't have my kyuhyun ? see that , they're so much important to me until I can't even choose any of them .
I saw their fake smile at music bank yesterday . i know , they're giving their best smile on the stage but still , a fangirl's heart still know their idols feelings . Kyuhyun , you failed to give me your best smile because .. i know you magnae , i freaking damn well know you . Its not your smile magnae , Its fake . They become alot more skinnier these days . Yes , the looks so damn skinny . especially leader . Can I say , shindong too ? oh well . This is so pathetic . But yeah , Suju , I'll wait for you to smile sincerely again . Like what cassiopeia did towards DBSK . Elfs will wait for it . We just want you to SINCERELY smile again . Say Kimchi ! :)
yeah , seeing people getting 8As , I really really envy them . next year , I'm going to study my head's off . I really am . I'll not online , yes , this year is my last chance . When the date shows 1.01.10 ( min's bday ) , I'll officially become a nerdy kid . I'll miss ALL OF YOU so much .I'll blog like .... once a month ? Nahh nana , blog for me , can ? XD I'll superbly miss my donghae . I'll write a post about suju before i end my online-ing's life , lol . I sounded really pathetic . Yes I am . you know ~ I badly want the 8As . I want PMR to end faster . So that I can rest as much as I want ( sister : eh kak , 2009 pun tk abes lagi , PMR lambtt lagi ) =.='' AND YEAH PEOPLE ! XD after PMR I want to go shopping ! I'll buy as mush as I want . I don't care anymore . Since my mom has allow me to buy online , I guess I'll buy all online then . THE THINGS ARE SOO hella EXPENSIVE ! grrr . I want to buy more bags lol ( afrina : sudah sudah la weh , berlambak beg kau nk buat ape ? nina : tak tahuuu ) XDDDDDD Oh wait , athirah ... damn .... SHE BOUGHT A NEW ITOUCH YESTERDAY ! damnit . I was shouting like a mad girl at the message she gave me XD I want an itouch too . =.='' She'll be going to Bangkok next wedenesday . Laaa , i wanna go there too . I'M STUCK AT HOME ! gahh . The most boring-est holiday i have. People , let 26 January comes faster can ? I can't wait for it lols . This is so killing me in and out =.=''
So yeah , yesterday had a short conference with yasmin and izreen . Damn funny XD They're questioning me about kpop and guess what ? I WON THE QUIZ XD
izreen : weh aku give up dah nk tanya kau lagi , THE END WEH !
Like I said , I'm a genius . :P Any last word izreen ?
izreen : tak de pape dah , SPEECHLESS .
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD . I love you lah weh ! XD she's so dorky and she makes me laugh my ass off . I was really really damn sad about suju then suddenly she's cheering me up and start saying nonsense about blalablabla . She starts to crap about something something too . lol XD Thank you do . Eyra , yeahh , she's like ... the type of friend that i've ever wanted for . I'm not lying when i said that she really know well about me . She know about me in and out . Too bad , she's not even in my class . Too bad . We're like ... you know , we can start to crap about anything . Just give us any topic , we'll start to crap like hell XD and yeah , i called her my twin at school since she really have the same mind and the same thinking like me . EXACTLY LIKE MINE XD Why am I talking about my friend ? well probably , I want the schoold start now , suddenly je XD I usually hate school days but now , I think that I've to go to school . I've to clear up my minds . I've been sad-ing about suju and dbsk , now its time for me to study . Suju is so important for me but now , Studies are more important . Sighh . I'll be using my only chance to online as i much as i want , because next year , there'll be no more for me . I can just say Hi to the computers and laptops in my house then go study . Pathetic =.=''
Congrats to all who gets 8A , and sape sape yg tk dpt 8A , YOU'RE STILL A GENIUS ! don't worry ^^ I'm so proud of you all :) Esha , Eya , Nisa , Nabila , Nana , Nicole . CONGRATULATIONS ! :) next year , my turn =.='' nazyrah , we'll die XDDDD
Kay , Off , Bye .
eh wait ! to whoever who wants my phone's number , email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
I don't want to lose contact with you people , and yeah , please keep me update XD bye :)
and one more thing , somebody know where can I buy korean stuffs other than mykpopdestiny , ebay and miss suppin ? thank you in advance .
and one moree , leader eeteuk right , his full name is park leeteuk right ? no , not his real name , his full stage name , park leeteuk kan ?
posted on Tuesday, December 22, 2009, 8:23 AM
I keep on refreshing soompi ,
I keep on praying nonstop ,
I keep on saying that the rumours are not true .
Just to let myself know that all are this are just rumours .
Can anyone help me ?
Can you please help me ?
Help me , comfort me .
I lost the most important thing in my life .
No , i didn't lost them ,
No , this is isnt true ,
No its not !
but the news are scaring the hell out of me .
This year is not a good year ,
we start with happiness and end with sadness .
Hangeng fans will be always geng's fans . No matter who he is , no matter how bad he is , no matter how scary he is . He is still the Hangeng that we know , he's still the hangeng that we love . Don't hate him because he's out of suju . Please support him endlessly .
Donghae , eunhyuk , kangin , eeteuk and yesung too have been said join geng to terminate his contract with sm . Whats happening now ? Im so confused . Kyu left message at his cyworld WRITTEN IN ENGLISH . The magnae is suffering . KYUHYUN IS NOT A BETRAYER YOU BITCH ! NO ONE IS A BETRAYER HERE ! HOW COME YOU SAID THEY'RE A BETRAYER ! DONT YOU DARE TO CALL YOURSELF A FAN IF YOU'RE SAYING SUJU'S BABY IS A BETRAYER ! GOSH WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING ?!
I believe in Super Junior . I dont care if they're at the fault , i still believe them . I believe in 13 members . To everyone who doubt suju , please think carefully . Youve the right to believe anyone but you've said that you're an ELF , dont you know what ELF's job ? do you ever know ?
ELF stand by suju , ELF support them endlessly , ELF DONT DOUBT THEM , ELF , ELF believe themgive them supports and the most important thing is , ELF don't love suju because they're hot or cute or whatever , ELF LOVE THEM FOR THE WAY THEY ARE . NO MATTER HOW BAD SUJU IS , NO MATTER HOW UGLY SUJU IS , NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN , ELF are always there for them .
If you say something like this : I love Suju but those cases makes me feel doubtful towards them .
Its just something like : I love my family but i don't believe them .
and one more ! SUPER JUNIOR DOES NOT ENDS WITH KYUHYUN ! ohmygod , how many times have magnae and leader told you ? SUPER JUNIOR STARTS WITH EETEUK AND ENDS WITH ELF ! leader did not said that suju ends with kyuhyun . They choose ELF to be the next 14 member . ONLY ELF DESERVE THAT PLACE AND NO ONE ELSE !
ELF , now , lets keep praying , for this to become only rumours . We cant just cry . Cry doesn't help anything . Lets pray hard . Stay united ! this is the times when ELF has to stay united ! Don't you ever dare to leave them , don't you ever dare to hate them , don't you ever dare TO DOUBT THEM ! I beg you .
We start 2009 with ' 13eyond your imagination '
ps : I changed my music bakcground to happy together and i end up crying , pfft .
Super Junior is forever 13 ,
posted on Monday, December 21, 2009, 5:40 PM
Han Geng ,
I THOUGHT YOU DID PROMISE US THAT WE'RE TOGETHER !
HANKYUNG-AH , DONT FREAKING LEAVE ME LIKE THIS !
DON'T KID ME ! TELL ME THAT ITS A RUMOUR ! HANKYUNG DID YOU HEAR ME ?
IM KILLING MYSELF NOW BECAUSE I CANT FUCKING THINK STRAIGHT !
I ACCIDENTALLY CUT MY HAND AND THATS FREAKING PAIN !
WE'RE TOGETHER ! REMEMBER ?
THE 13 OF YOU ! HOW CAN WE LIVE LIKE THIS ?!
HANKYUNG PLEASE TELL ME ITS A RUMOUR . PLEASE .
posted on Friday, December 18, 2009, 11:59 PM
Warning : They're not gay , thanks .
*inhale exhale inhale exhale*
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! THIS IS WHAT PHOTOSHOPS ARE MADE FOR ! OMG SEE THAT ?! CAN'T YOU SEE THAT ?! YUNJAE IS FREAKING KISSING EACH OTHER ! YUNHO AND JAEJOONG , I MEAN ! CAN'T YOU SEE THAT PEOPLE ?! OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD ! NOW I CAN IMAGINE MYSELF THEY'RE KISSING ! AND WOOSH ! THE PICTURE IS SO PERFECT ! PERFECTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT ! THIS IS WHAT A FANGIRL WANT ACTUALLY ! OHMYGOD OHMYGOD ! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! SCREAM WITH ME NOW ! LETS SCREAM WITH NOW ! I'M SOO IN A GOOD MOOD ! A VERYY GOOD MOOD ! OHMYGOD OHMYGOD ! THIS IS REALLY THE BEST KISSING PISTURE ON EARTH ! agree ? no ? XD
okay , stop with that now . lets clarify this matter with you people .
Okay ? LOL seriously Jung Yunho , I know you love Kim Jaejoong . No need to hide anymore , HAH ! XD You're busted already XD
Fangirl Story ,
posted on , 1:44 PM
Super Junior , CONGRATULATIONS !
yeah , you makes me cry again , AGAIN !
I love the fact that its you who makes me cry .
I hope that all 13 of you can receive the awards , all 13 of you can hug together , gahhh .
I only saw leader , heechul , yesung , siwon , hankyung , donghae , eunhyuk , shindong , sungmin , ryeowook and magnae , where are the other 2 ?
Yes , Kangin and Kibum , where are you ? huwaaa .
No ! OMG HECK NO ! You've U , Don't Don and Marry U . Yah ! YOU'RE POPULAR ! but yeah , i admit that sorry sorry was the one who have alot of popularity . I'm glad you won ! I'm so proudddddd of you . I'm so DAMN PROUD ! Korean ELF , you're doing a great job ! The most things that i'm proud with is , when people ask me ' are you a fan of korean boyband ? ' and i will answer ' YES ! I'M AN ELF ! ' . I'm proud of you guys , seriously .
Yeah Boys , lets get back our youngwoon bear RIGHT NOW ! *wait for awhile , tears over floading* I, too , wish that kangin can perform with you and receive the awards together . He deserve the happiness too ! I know what Kangin did was really irresponsible but I know he also regrets it and it's heartbreaking that Teukie is finally talking about Kangin but I'm feeling really upset because Teukie misses him and Kangin misses him and the rest of his brothers. I hope it will be a BIG SUCCESS in 2010 ! just remember that ELF are there for you . and you LEADER TEUKIE ! I SAW YOUR DIMPLE ! I SAW YOUR DIMPLE ! I FREAKING SAW YOUR DIMPLE ! why am i excited ? because i loveeee it when you're happy . I loveee it when you're not the emo teukie . PLEASE BE HAPPY ! okay ?
SUJU WIN ONLY 1 AWARD ?! OMG HELLO ! SUJU IS THE ARTIST OF THE YEAR! People yahhh ! HOW COME ONLY ONE ?! FREAKING ONEEEEEEE ?! truly dissapointed ! Melon didn't like suju . And they just HAVE TO give suju the award because suju are there . Shit Melon . SHIT !
Picture time now XD
Super Show Nanjing WAS EPIC ! SEE HANCHUL ! ( although heechul said that it suppose to be heekyung ) BUT HEECHUL ! I DON'T CARE ! how come a beauty like you can be the man ? dumbo kim heechul XD see the picture ? They're getting married and heechul has the thingy-on-his-head which suppose to be the bride who usually wear this XD hanchul is lovee . They just somewhat looks like a real couple . Hankyung is the china prince and heechul is the china princess XD EVEN HEECHUL HAS AGREED ABOUT THIS XDD
Golden Disk Award
EUNHAE ! hyukjae was crying ENDLESSLY and he's lucky that donghae was there to calm him down . Eunhae CRIED ! of course idiot . you usually will see this scene in a couple situation . when one of them cried , the partner will cry too . Isn't it too obvious that they're a couple ? and hyukjae makes me so mad when he said that IU is the most beautiful woman on earth . HAHA ! i wanna laugh my ass off . seriously LEE HYUKJAE . you will not get to marry IU because she's freaking YOUNG and yeah , she didn't said that she like you too . Idiot IU , i know . A jealous fangirl , of course XD
ps : from my point of view , i have to say that donghae's butt WAS HOT XD perverted fans .
I lovee this picture ! but its not PERFECT . Its not perfect at all . Two person is missing . They looked so happy but it will be more happier when the two members are there . Saw leader's dimple ? XD
Stop looking at it leader ! It was all ours ! Teukie was like ' did i really get this ? am i dreaming ? ' LOL LEADER ! want me to slap your butt and told you that was REAL ? XD why butt now and not face anymore ? XD
I SAW KIBUM ! I SAW KIM KIBUM ! I SAW SUPER JUNIOR KIM KIBUM ! I SAW HIM ! I SAW HIM ! I SAW HIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM ! yup , am so happy . FINALLY HE'S SMILING ! LIKE , FINALLY ! YOU DON'T HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I'VE WAITED FOR THIS ! HE FREAKING SMILE AT ME ! OMG I DIED ! his charming smile , HOW CAN YOU NOT FALL FOR HIM ?! I MISS HIMMMMMMM ! I'M GLAD THAT HE COMEBACK ! and you know something ? I THOUGHT HE WAS THE HOTTEST GHOST ON EARTH ! better than the vampire ( you-know-who) vampire and ghost ? are they the same ? no ? XD . PLEASE ! GOD ! WHY AM I TYPING ALL IN CAPS LOCK ?! BECAUSE I'M WAYY TOOOO EXCITED ALREADY ! and maybe kibum XD i'll watch your ghost movie FOR THE FIRST TIME in my life at youtube XD EVERYTHING FOR KIBUM OKAY ! XDDD
That's all for now , i want to talk about A'st1 but i think this post was way too long already . I'll write about them later ~ Bye !
Now , from the very beginning i love kpop until now , I've to suffer something like this . CAN'T YOU PEOPLE LEAVE ME ALONE ?! I'M HUMAN TOO ! AND I DO HAVE MY OWN LIFE ! CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE ! HOW MANY TIME I'VE TO SAY THIS ! LEAVE ME ALONE ! ughh i hate you .
LEAVE ME ALONE .
posted on Thursday, December 17, 2009, 11:57 PM
save for jaejin ! i'm so busy with birthday wishes , cries . anyway congrats suju for the wininng . WE DESERVE IT ANYWAY HAHA ! and melon sucks i tell you . just sucks all the way . suju is THE artist of the year . YEAR I MEAN , YEAR ! and i don't wanna believe that they only won one . ATLEAST THREE ! sheshh , go to hell MELON ! still , one is good enough better than nothing . but i still want to say that THEY DESERVE IT MORE . YES , THEY DESERVE IT MOREE . melon is so not fair . MELON BOO !
SHI AH Day !
posted on Tuesday, December 15, 2009, 1:09 AM
yoochun owns him , get it ?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JUNSU AND KIM JUNHO !
*hugs all the way*
Now , tell me people , who can ever have cute voice like he do ? Gosh , I wish to give him a big big hug now . He’s so cutee ! and of course i know why yoochun always love his duck butt here . My Jaejoong’s soulmate . No , he’s like , the other half of jaejoong . Of course my yunho is jaejoong’s lover but junsu is his soulmate . His friend that always be there for him . Not like yunho who’s with stupid SM * smack yunho’s head * *rolls eyes at yunho * just kidding XD. Stop talking about that because the main focus is junsu here XD Okay Kim Junsu . Well , He’s cute , NOT HOT AT ALL . Just a cutie pie person who has a duck butt . Duck butt means small butt or big butt ? I don’t know XD So yeah , His voice is just plain AWESOME ! His dance too . I don’t know why but junsu has a move that Cassiopeia will immediately say ‘ oh i know ! its junsu ‘. I don’t know how to explain that move but yeah , junsu is special ! He has twins too ! okay imagine two hot guys at one time ? XD I mean , his brother was just like him . I didn’t know at first that he has twin but when i watched introducing star friend , he brought his brother ! I was totally like o_O ?! XD Their face are the same ( of course ! dumbo ) , their height lol XD not the same because junho is slightly more taller than junsu XD .So yeah , at this time , i just want you to stay healthy , be with jaechun , don’t do stupid things , love your life , keep in your mind that cassioepia love you and do things that you think it is right . Like , marrying yoochun ? XD I know i’m crazy .
Yah ! i take back my words ! HE'S INDEED VERYY HOT ! and i saw something XD pervert fans .
look at junsu ! His expression was like ' damn chunnie ! YOU GOT A HOT LIPS ! ' XD just kiss him already su , like we care :P
Happy Birthday Again the kim brothers !
*smack yoochun* yah ! take care of my su ! okay ?
posted on Monday, December 14, 2009, 11:44 PM
save spot for my tofu . MY TOFU XD
posted on Sunday, December 13, 2009, 7:15 PM
WOOTS PEOPLE ! XD
Happy birthday to YOU !
Happy birthday to YOU !
Happy Birthday to ANISA !
Happy brithday to YOU !
Yay ! My adorable anisa is finally reach her actual age XD 15 YEAR YOUNG ! after this nisa , we're no longer same-age-friend. you'll be my senior ! XD *bow* Okayy , so what did you wish for your birthday ? siwon ? HAHA ! XDD
Umm , ape lagi . *cryuntilmyroomfloaded* I didn't have much money to give your birthday present , aish stupid me T_T I only have RM 2.00 in my purse and blame the bags for being TOO ATTRACTIVE ! yahh bag T_T I'm sorry ! Huwaaa
Anisa Safwa :
I soo want to reply ALL YOUR TAGS ! huwaa , but yeah , my mother is going to use her laptop at 12 AND AND books going to accompany me AGAIN tonight T_T . I'm still alive people , no worries about that XD am going to off now . byeeee :D Happy birthday JINKI ! JINKI JINKI ! XD
posted on Wednesday, December 9, 2009, 8:01 PM
spot for minho :)
What a girl wants
posted on Tuesday, December 8, 2009, 1:47 PM
Hello ! okay sighh . I wish to write a cheerful entry but i FAILED XD So yeah , I'm all okay now . Being a fangirl is the HARDEST THINGS ! yeah i know :P
ps: I swear the title takde kaitan dngn entry post XD
Woots people , my mom gave me permission to buy online BUT then , i must use MY own money to buy those things . alah , macam tak biasa pulak . but yeah , i'm happy . This is not my first time buying online . The first time i bought online was last year and i'm so not expected that i bought something from singapore ! LOL
So now , lets move on . Wuuuuu , me and nana , FOUND EUNHAE KID VERSION ! omg seriously ! I love aril & azzam so so so much ! and whoever watching idola kecil ? childish i know BUT BUT ! YOU CAN SEE EUNHAE KID VERSION THERE ! SO CUTEEEE ! xD
so yeah , there we go , eunhae kid version . The kid with the peace is donghae , and the very cute boy next to him is eunhyuk. right nana ? and yeah , i love azzam ! I can swear azzam has the most beautiful smile and voice , he can sing damn well . I fall for azzam seriously T_T for Aril , he's just like the way eunhyuk is . so playful and a cutie pie ! *pinch his cheeks*
So there we go , OUR LOVELY EUNHAE . YAH LEE DONGHAE ! STOP BITTING YOUR MOUTH ! It makes me wanna kiss you so badly , idiot T_T
Eunhae kid version is soo lovely . I watched the latest episode where sam was eliminated . People are crying like a mad person whereas they're like ' ape nangis2 ni ? ' LOL but at the end , azzam cried because sam is leaving . He's crying like ' JANGAN SAMM ! ' so cute and heartbreaking . as usual , aril was beside him at that time to comfort him . JUST LIKE EUNHAE ! xD azzam is cryyingg and everyone who's watching the idola kecil , DID YOU SAW ARIL WIPES HIS TEARS ?! OMG ! lol xD then azzam wipes sam's tears . seriously lah people , they don't have to be this cruel to separate them up . don't you guys have a heart watching them cry ? ughh . I love azzam and aril ! AND YEAH HUMANS ! azzam went sleepover at aril's house during hari raya haji . Isn't it too advance already 'azril' ? xDDD
So yeah , there's some picture of azril moments ,
Don't you love how azzam is sitting like a girl beside aril ? LMAO . AZRIL FTW !
woots ~ hear azzam sang pelangi petag . he makes me cry you know . aishhh that boy
Yeah nowww , lets move on ! Suju will release their super show 2nd album this *count* THURSDAY ! see , my money's going to fly away out again . Bye bye money , see you next year XD my goal next year is i want to save money rm50 per month , but nahh , rm20 will have to donate to my bank lah . so i've only rm30 . sighh . how am i going to buy a friggin ipod next year if it's like that ? *sighh . but nevermind , I'll try to think about another way to save my money . and yeah , I'll tell my hand and heart not being too stupid to buy all things especially bags when i'm out shopping. I can't take my eyes off bags seriously Y_Y until now , i've *count* 13 bags , two of them i still don't use it . I want to buy this bag nana's bag . I'll post the picture once i've found her bag's picture xD but yeah , her bag will cost me RM 69 . sighhh .
oh rightt , now i just realised that kyu IS skinny . He has FAT CHEEKS like me . *cry* how can i not love this cutie magnae lah people ?
I loveeeeeeeee his stare ! STARE AT ME LIKE THAT TEUKIE ! IMMA EAT YOU AFTER THIS ! Y_Y
' Popo Me , Lee Hyukjae '
So adorable can ?! If you watch the video , you can see how donghae show hyuk that banner and yeah people , hyuk KISS donghae's the-thing-on-his-head 's LIPS ! XD and donghae being too annoying again messing up with hyukjae and that makes hyukjae want to bite him but nahh , donghae manage to runnn away XD so cutee ~
I WATCHED MIRACLE'S SUPER SHOW THAILAND VIDEO WHEN SIWON KISS HANKYUNG'S CHEEK ! OMG ! imagine me , at 2 am in the morning , screaming with no voice XD that is seriously EPIC ! and yeah , you can hear magnae kyu sings kibum's part in miracle . SO LMAO ! i tell you , i love my boys so much ! :P
My father is supposed to go with us to Nanjing this thursday but yeah , Its cancel T_T The mainn reason is , my grandmother is sick . So yeah , we've to take a look at her . Its first like this , The reason my father cancel the trip because he had a meeting on that date , but tengok tengok , meeting cancel . Okay lah ckan ? Last week , my grandmother disahkan ada i-don't-know-what-desease . I was like O.O . How am i gonna go there ? And the decision is now , my father will postpone it to another date which is maybe next year . sighh . If my grandmother didn't sick then I can go and probably meet suju lol xD Suju will held their concert at nanjing on the 11 dec . And they probably arrive at the airport on the 9 or 10 . The date i supposed to go is 10 . So maybe , I can meet them in person . Wouldn't it be soo nice if i met them in person , in the friggin airport ? Sighh but yeah ! my father will have the chance . LOL XD . So yeah , no trip for december . Will have to wait for january for medan trip . I am sooo anticipating to go there with my cousin ! I've friends YAY !
Now , its time for to log off PFFT . i've tuition homeworks and its friggin 10 pages . damn good teacher i knoww . oh right ! before i forget , i bought a YG's magazine and epop malay version magazine . AND HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA ! YG's poster and epop's poster are the same can ? That means , the poster is FT Island , yup ! I've two FTI's poster with the same picture , cuma bezanya besar and kecil jeh XDD . LOL me :P I'll post the picture if i've times , SO NOW ! BYE BYE ! :)
Life Is Hard
posted on Sunday, December 6, 2009, 10:55 AM
This IS really the things that i get from being an ELF , heechul know me very very very well .
"Super Junior is my biggest pride."- Leeteuk
teukie , me too :(
How I wish , that , you all know what am i going through now .
How I wish that you all can see how pain i am now ,
How I wish that someone can hugg me now .
I need a bigg hug to comfort me , someone ?
My eyes are swollen , my heart hurts so much , my stomach pain like hell .
So yeah , i guess , this is just a perfect time for me , to stop being a fangirl .
me being a fangirl , hurt everyone's heart , hurt eveyone's feelings , and my mother said i'm becoming a horrible person after i'm a fangirl .
I've to stop for now , I don't want to hurt any one's feelings anymore , i want to be a good girl .
i want to make something that can makes my mom proud of me .
I want to change , but leaving suju is not the right thing , i know .
I , now , am trying to decrease my overload fangirl-ish .
I hurt everyone's feelings .
and yeah , i've create so much problems in this one year being a fangirl ,
I can't endure it now , 2009 is really a bad year for me .
Mom , I didn't mean to hurt you and i didn't have any intention to make you hurt . I don't want you to hate me . I don't want you to ignore me . Please talk to me . I'm so sorry about this morning incident . I'm so sorry :(
Super Junior is worth than a living i must say , but hurting my mother's feeling is killing me inside . I choose to die immediately if i saw my mother's hurting because of me . Super Junior makes my life complete but at the same time i'm hurting others feeling . And more worst , the other that i mean did not understand the ' fangirl ' word . How i wish suju know how much i've to suffer because of them . That's it , now i realise that love between idol and fans are the most saddest love story .
ps: I'll reply your tags after i can calm my self . tata for now .
pps ; I don't want people to know my problem but i need to write . sometimes writing makes me calm .
ppps : I miss the smile of donghae . be healthy .
pppps: I sounded like i am dying , i seriously am dying now .
pppppps: I don't want to stop loving them , but people around me makes me sick and they're practically saying to me to stop . you know who you are .
posted on Friday, December 4, 2009, 6:06 PM
OHMYGODD !!!! Baby hae ! xD
I'm sorry if i hurt you in any ways . Me being an elf , its a job for me to protect my 13 angels . They're not a thing that you can easily hate them or love them . They're human for God's sake . I know , EVERYONE deserve to say anything , but i'm hurt when you said you love 2PM and leave suju . A fan , doesn't act like this . A fan , being together with her/his idol forever . A fan , the love of a fan cannot change eventhough there's many band debut . I'm not saying you're not a fan , you ARE a fan but you're not the fan that i said . I feel pity if a band have a fan like you , i'm not bashing you nor hate you . I don't know why you doesn't like suju anymore . I'm not forcing you to like them back , i just want to know why . Suju isn't gay , let me clarify everything about this . If you think suju is a gay boyband , then you're wrong . It just a fangirl's fantasy . I don't know whats your main reason about not liking suju . Please tell me why then i'll make things clear . Don't hate Suju please . They're humans too and human do wrong . last but not least , don't leave 2PM like you leave Suju . I feel sorry for 2PM if you leave them . Stick to a band . :)
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